“It’s beautiful, isn’t it,” she started. “The world has learned to celebrate death as its favorite season.” She glanced out of the panel of windows, toward the rust-colored puddles sitting beneath the trees and continued, “Then, there you are: your own life mimicking this season of releasing what has decayed. Isn’t it incredible?”
Perhaps it’s universal intelligence or the hand of God or my wilder nature, but it’s true in any case. Gradually yet unmistakably, a woman in me has been dying. An identity with tired and tattered roles, insecurities, and beliefs. After years of transitioning, her skin has finally been shed and quietly buried.
A smile flickered across my face as my gaze followed hers, dancing over the piles of autumn leaves scattered around the parking lot. Her words settled into my bones, warm and familiar, finding a home in the utter stillness replacing old highways of noise.
Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estés says a woman dies a thousand times before she is twenty years old and thousands more thereafter. Women part with hopes and loves and plans and careers and fears; with pieces of themselves they thought they’d never lose and those they had only ever dreamt of living without.
One day, if our eyes are clear and our spirit is awake, we’ll have finally killed off enough women and retired enough wrought-iron masks for our softest, simplest, most powerful Self to rise to the surface.
Bare-boned like the trees without their most extravagant costumes of leaves.
Stripped down to the trunk, the core, the aged growth rings marking hallowed cycles between life and death and life again.
My therapist was right: it’s beautiful and incredible and exactly as it should be in October ❊ ...
A new season of working online full-time with my best buddy — this should be interesting 🤣 there are days when we work really well together and other days I wonder how we’re going to make it work at all 🤪
But what I do know is our passions align and our mission is the same. We thrive off of helping others live a healthier and happier life. Not just with fitness but building confidence, finding your passions, and creating the life you’ve always wanted. There’s nothing wrong with big dreams & chasing them with everything you have. 🧡🌊 ...